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March 17th, 2007
02:24 pm


I guess I should have known. Sometimes I can be so stupid.

Current Mood: weirdweird
Current Music: Paint it Black

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August 6th, 2005
06:08 pm


*Thinking about you makes me crazy, I think Id rather be sane*
It's time to move on, time to get going
What lies ahead, I have no way of knowing
But under my feet baby, grass is gorwing
It's time to move on, It's time to get going

Broken skyline, movin' through thr airport
She's an honest defector
Conscientious objector
Now her own protector

Broken skyline, Which way to love land
Which way to somethin better
Which way to forgiveness
Which way do I go

Time to move on, time to get going
What lies ahead, I have no way of knowing
But under my feet, baby, grass is growing
It's time to move on, time to get going

Sometime later, getting the words wrong
Wasting the meaning and losing the rhyme
Nauseous adrenalin
Like breakin up a dog fight
Like a deer in the headlights
Frozen in real time
Im losing my time

Its time to move on, time to get going
What lies ahead I have no way of knowing
But under my feet baby, grass is growing
Its time to move on, its time to get going

Current Mood: blahblah
Current Music: Tom Petty

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July 31st, 2005
07:33 pm


*You enter my life, and then you just disappear...*
Ill start with how great the Sunrize Festival was!!! :-) It started on Thursday, I borrowed some money which i still owe back.. lol.. The first night was great. I ran into Lauren, Danielle, Angela, and Laysha. I was so happy to see those girls! I havent seen Danielle in so long. Was gret getting to see her just like old times. I got to spend time with those girls all weekend. It was amazing. Greatful Dead played. I cant even explain how amazing that was to me. I loved it so much. There was alot of great music . The bongos were good, and of coarse Tim Reynolds!! Beer Beer Beer all weekend too... lol.... I wont say too much more about the bein messed up thing... lol but everyone was like completely messed up all weekend, that was a good thing tho, just added on to how great the weekend was. Hung out with Brett, Austin, Dennis, Freedo, Ashley, Jenn, Homer, and tons of other people out there too. Sorry if I forgot you lol it was a hell of a weekend. Thanks everyone for the wonderful weekend!! :-D

I slept all day today, because I was so damn tired for this weekend. lol.... I got some good sleep in my own bed it was great. Today Im just in thinking mode, I dunno if thats a good thing or not.

I woke up at 11 for a lil bit with a phone call from Chad. I get so upset when he calls me, because he talks to me like everything is alright, but he comes in and out of my life and acts like it wont hurt me. He wasnt just my boyfriend, he was like my best friend. He saved my life so many times. I told him so much. He was always there for me, and now that hes not I just dont know what to do ya know? I mean how can someone just walk out of your life like that and then come back every once in a while and remind you without reminding themselves. I just dont know what is going through his head. I wish he would make up his mind to wether he wants to be my friend or not. My heart gets broken over and over again and it hurts...

no one knows how i feel..............

Current Mood: uncomfortableUnexplainable
Current Music: American Music

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July 14th, 2005
11:08 pm


*Sail Away With Me*
Sail away with me honey
I put my heart in your hands
Sail away with me honey now, now, now
Sail away with me
What will be will be
I wanna hold you now

Crazy skies all wild above me now
Winter howling at my face
And everything I held so dear
Disappeared without a trace
Oh, all the times I tasted love
Never knew quite what I had
Little darling if you hear me now
Never needed you so bad
Spinning round inside my head
**Sail away with me

Well lets see here, I didnt do too much the last couple days. Today I went hiking.... went to the waterfall, that was nice, saw a Gekko (w/e) it was red with little yellow spots! It was soooooo cute. Well then we checked out this other road, it was really nice. Then we went to Greenwood. Brett n I that is *lol*.

Tomorrow after John gets off work, Im goin to Tops with the fam. Then who knows what Im gunna get into. Hopefully getting smashed to forget that my brother and his wife (the newly weds) are moving to VA early next week... :((( They are coming to visit on Sunday, I cant wait to see them, itll bve the first time I see them after they got married. And probably the last for a while, until I go to VA to visit them! :-)

Well, I guess Im going to Mead sometime next week so that I can ask about emplyment. Im really hoping that I get a job there. That would be great.

Anyways, my computer is being an ass, so ill write moere some other time...

Peace N Love all...

Current Mood: coldcold
Current Music: Uhmmmmmmmmm

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July 12th, 2005
11:15 pm


~*..::Never || Knowing::..*~
Memories Memories Memories...

I just can't get all these memories out of my head lately. Just dunno how I guess. I think so much. Think about the past, think about memories. Sometimes I even play my memories out in my head, I guess it feels like it gives me meaning or something.  I dunno, but I spend alot of my time thinking, thats for sure.  Im not sure wether it is a good thing of not, but I dont think its goin to change anytime soon.

Anyways I made the best cake in the world today! It was awesome... Logan was here most of the day. Love gettin to spend time with him.  (Thats my nefew for those of you who dont know)

Ok now for some lyrics...

.::Never Know::.

We're breathing and rebuilding, And we're growing, always guessing
Never Knowing
We're shocking, but we're .N.o.t.h.i.n.g.
We're just moments, we're clever but we're clueless
We're just human, amusing and confusing
We're trying, but where is this all leading?
We'll Never Know...

Alright, thats enough for one day...

Peace and love all

Current Mood: contemplativecontemplative
Current Music: The long and winding road- The Beatles

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July 2nd, 2005
11:39 pm


*I have become comfortably numb*
Thursday was an alright day I suppose. Chad came over around 12 and we drank some 99, talked and listened to some music. Drove for a lil bit and smoked a cigg. He left around 3. I dont know what it is with us 2. Who knows. He left 2 of his cds here, guess I should return them huh?

Friday I went to Hoss's with the fam, that was fun! :-) Always is. My sister Misty was working, it was nice to see her for a lil bit. I dont see her very often. I went out for a lil bit Friday night, but I wasnt feeling good, so I came home early and went to sleep after doing some laundry.

I had an alright night tonight, until recently. I was drinkin white russians with my sister and my mom, and we took a walk, and then the two fuckers left me and went to the bar. That pisses me off so damn bad. Oh well, they can kiss my ass next time they want to drink with me, im so sick of them doing that. and I dont care what anyone says about it.

Oh I forgot to mention, I watched the Live8 concert from London today! It was awesome. Pink Floyd got together to rock the stage!! And they kicked some major ass. That was probably the highlight of my night. Now Im just in a bad mood... errrrr....

I think im gonna get off here and drink my worries down the drain.

have a good night... hopefully better than mine...



Current Mood: pissed offpissed off
Current Music: Counting Crows- Anna Begins

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June 30th, 2005
11:22 pm


*Runaway Train, Never Comin' Back*
I got my phone back today!! :-) Its still the same #. I cant believe that I dropped it in the lake and it works again... Im so happy about that. ~599*9338~ Gimme a call everyone... Love to hear from you all..

I watched my Soaps this morning of coarse, they were good as usual. Took a shower, A hot one this time. Was glad to take a nice hot shower instead of a freezing cold one like I have been getting. Its funny how you take such little things forgranted, and then you get them taken away, and when you get them back you appreciate them so much more. *lol* Well I didnt do too much of anything today.

Got home tonight, and talked to Chad's brother online. I dont know if I wrote about seeing all the fire trucks and the helicopter by Chad's house the other day, but I did. I guess A kid named Matt Moore was in a fatal Dirt Bike accident. Im really sorry to hear about that. It seems like things like this have been happening alot lately. Its just horrible.  :(

Well tomorrow, Im gettin up early and gettin a shower, and watching my soaps of coarse, and then getting ready to go to Hoss's around 4:30 or so with the fam. It should be a good time. I dont know what Im getting into after that, but gimme a call with some suggestions.. The cell will be on, its always on :-P...

Josh Trindle is moving to Alaska soon, hes gonna have a going away party sometime, I defenitly want to go to that to see him before he moves...

Tyler is in town!! :-) He lives in Cali now and only comes home every once in a while. Im going to do something with him early next week probably, Defenitly wanna catch him before he heads back.

Well I dunno what else to write, besides some lyrics....

  *.::All I want::.*
~Violent Femmes~
All I want is to talk to you
All I want is to talk to you
IM aching for your touch
Im breaking cause I miss you so much
So you miss me too?

All I want is to walk with you
All I want is to walk with you
Im hopin for your kiss
Im dopin cause I miss you so much
Do you miss me too?

Little bit closer, Little bit closer, Someday
When I try to get closer, then you move away

And all I want to say is
All I want is to be with you
All I want is to be with you
Im prayin for one night
Im layin low cause I love you so much
Though I know it aint right

Damn good song... Anyways, Im getting tired, so im gunna get to sleep. Goodnight Loves..

Peace *n* Love to all...

Current Mood: depresseddepressed
Current Music: Pink Floyd- Comfortably Numb

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June 29th, 2005
11:47 am


*Too much silence can be misleading, ur drifting I can hear it in the way that ur breathing*
I guess I better start off by saying that I dropped my phone in the lake yesterday!! It worked for a little bit, and now it doesnt work at all.  I should be getting another one today with the same #. (I hope) I had the worst freggan day yesterday... errr. I have to take freezing cold showers, because we ran out of oil. 2 more cold showers before I can get a warm one. It sucks! I was so damn tired yesterday and not feeling well. It defenitly wasnt my day.I hope this week gets a whole lot better!!

On a brighter note, Friday will be 30 days clean!! I need to get drunk this Friday, I deserve it!! My family and I are going to Hoss's on Friday, and then to the Dairy Queen, I swear they want to make me fat or something *lol* But after that who knows what I might get into. I defenitly want to get have some drinks, thats for sure. Im hoping this weekend is a good one.

Ill have some pics of my brothers wedding as soon as my sister uploads em. I cant wait to see them!! Im excited.

Todd is coming home from Iraq in early September, Thats cool. I keep in touch with him through myspace.

I got to talk to Kevo last night, He was having a bad day just like me *lol* well I hope he cheered up a lil bit. He always cheers me up, I figured I would try to return the favor. 

Anyway, If I figure out more to write Ill write later, but dont count on it *lol*

Peace N Love All..

Current Mood: anxiousanxious
Current Music: Sitting, Waiting, Wishing-Jack Johnson

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June 26th, 2005
04:41 pm


~*I B.e.l.i.e.v.e In Memories*~
I hear wedding bells!!....

Well, My brother got married yesterday!!!! :-D It was such a beautful wedding. They got married at the lake (Pine Shelter) Dawn and my brother looked so good. During the ceremony, my brother started to cry when he was giving his vows (They wrote their own..*Beautiful*) You can tell that they love each other so much. Words just cant explain those two! I felt like crying it was so beautiful *lol* I was so happy, it was just a Great day... *Incredible* Dawns band played. I finally got to see her play the drums.. She is defenitly good! :-) The reception was great, it was free bar, and it was catered by the light house. I got to spend some time with all of my family. Some I havent seen in a good while.  Dawn got Johnny a beautiful wedding present, it was a painting of Ray Charles that her friend painted. It was really nice.  Logan, Jenna and Hailee did a good job walkin down the isle. they were so cute!! I told my brother Congradulations, but I didnt get to tell Dawn because she was playing the drums. Im so happy for them.. Everyone looked great, and the wedding couldnt have went any better.

Congrats John and Dawn!! :-)

Last night went great too. I came  home from my brothers wedding, and took another shower, because it was damn hot out there in the sun for that many hours, and got ready for the second time. And then I broke out the 99 bananas..! I drank a mixed drink with orange juice and after that I drank it straight for a while. Chris called around like 9, and I went out to his property, its so nice out there, I had a great time. I got trashed thats for sure... *lol* Chris let me drive his jeep on the property, I was scared... that jeep scares me lol...  I came home around 3 I think... I dunno... who worries about time when they are drunk?? lol Anyways I finally figured out what those effing containers are called hah, they are nalgenes!! :-P

Oooh I forgot to mention that Chad effin called me yesterday. He is so freggan ignorent. I swear he acted like it hasnt been months since we've talked. errrr.. Anyways he called to say that he couldnt come to the wedding. He said it was because he had strep, but yeah like I believe that story. The real reason is that hes too far up Anthias ass to do anything with anyone but her. Oh well tho, whatever he wasnts to do I guess. I knew he wasnt going to come, I dont know why he called to tell me what I already knew. Hell I didnt even know he had a cell phone, that shows how much him and I talk.  As if we'll even talk ever again anyways. I dont even know why he felt the need to call me. I dont get him... AT ALL...

~*Ive seen Fire and Ive seen rain, Ive seen sunny days that I thought would never end, Ive seen lonely days where I could not find a friend, But I always thought that Id see you again*~

I miss my Kev... I havent talked to him in a couple days. Hes defenitly a great person to talk to. Hes always understands me, and cheers me up. He is my very best friend!! He was  in my dream last night *lol* A dreams not a dream without Kevo... *lol* Love that crazy kid.

I dont think I wrote about swimmin the other day. Guess I better do that :-P I went out to the lake with Jenn and Brett. It was a pretty nice place. Its only the second time Ive been swimmin this year. I had a good time. I always have a good time hangin out with Brett... and always have fun hangin with Jenn too *lol* Jenn and I drank some 99 (Good stuff) and Brett drank his rum..  It was fun stuff. Brett dropped Jenn and I off at my house, and we walked around for a lil bit, and then I went home because I had to get to sleep early so I could get up to get ready for my brothers wedding the next day.

Well there is nothing but bitching going on in the house today, so I am listening to some music with my headphones to try n drown it out a little bit at least.

Im not letting anyone  ...*^*CrUsH mY gOoD mOoD*^*...  damn it my bro just got married and Im in a good mood!! :-)

I think Im heading to catch the sunset sometime soon, unless plans change before then.. who knows...

*Everybodys gone,
They left the television screamin that the radios on
Someone stole my shoes
But theres a couple of bananas and a bottle of booze
Happy new years baby
we could probably fix it if we clean it up all day*

*Drink my worries down the drain and fly away to somewhere new*

I Love you all... Peace N Love as always

Current Mood: cheerfulcheerful
Current Music: Fool to think- Dave Matthews Band

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June 23rd, 2005
11:50 pm


*The tears we cry, is the laughter that keeps us coming back 4 more*
...And this girl still loves the Sunrise...
No longer sees it with her sleeping eyes...

Current Mood: draineddrained
Current Music: The air conditioner

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